Guarded

Heart that is guarded behind false smiles and false assurances

Walled in by the pain, beaten and broken tears mixed with blood

Tucked away no longer worn on the sleeve of outstretched arms

Remain hidden within this chest but the safest place is still further away

Looking deep inside fear grabs hold and uncertainty digs it’s claws in

Heart so well guarded could never be reached but only set free

Walls break down brick by brick

Heart mended piece by broken and shattered piece

Heart so beautifully disastrous and dangerously fragile with a million cracks on the surface

Telling the tale of love’s catastrophe it could fall apart at any given moment

Standing alone on the pedestal with no end of loneliness in sight

Afraid not only of remaining here guarded but thin lies and fake smiles

But of taking that step off the edge not knowing if there will be a place to land

Or just more pain, more of the same

Yes another one!!!!!!

Sleep won’t come to me tonight

I can’t seem to find it and it’s all I want

One night of actual rest the kind that lead to good mornings

No more waking nightmares, no more terrors behind my eyes

Bring me peace, give me life, take my burden and lay it down

Take it all and give me nothingness, silence

Fight to keep from breaking down

Struggling to keep it together when all I want is to breakdown

If at all make it spectacular

Take me to the land of dreams and leave me there

Let it all come down, break down these walls

Come crashing down on me like the pouring rain

Don’t stop me this time, let those tears run down

Don’t say a word, let me fall just this once