Make It A Mess

Is it written on my face or is there a neon sign that tells everyone just how much pain I am in?

I feel like you could see right through me and all my thoughts and emotions shown clearly in the light

Try and hide but I know it’s not working the guilt it cuts right through me

The pain it just might be the end of me and there is nothing in my power to stop it

I fight for ever breath that I take, this constant battle it leaves me weak and tired

I may not look it but I am battered and beaten I just hide it from you

I am lost and lonely but more scared than anything

What will you say, what will you do when you see just how broken down I am

Inside I struggle to keep it all in but my heart can take no more of this

The light I once had, the smiles I once put on no longer keep the demons at bay

I am not only a mess I make it a mess I never know what to say

But some how I make it through every day like a soldier marches on

My life is still keeping in step with the deadly cadence

How can I keep up if all I need is rest, a break from the pain

Yes another one!!!!!!

Sleep won’t come to me tonight

I can’t seem to find it and it’s all I want

One night of actual rest the kind that lead to good mornings

No more waking nightmares, no more terrors behind my eyes

Bring me peace, give me life, take my burden and lay it down

Take it all and give me nothingness, silence

Fight to keep from breaking down

Struggling to keep it together when all I want is to breakdown

If at all make it spectacular

Take me to the land of dreams and leave me there

Let it all come down, break down these walls

Come crashing down on me like the pouring rain

Don’t stop me this time, let those tears run down

Don’t say a word, let me fall just this once