Last Kiss

This is one of the saddest songs I have ever heard... it is originally from the 50s or so but has been redone a few times... the one I always listen to is the pearl jam version.

Last Kiss

Oh where oh where can my baby be
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to Heaven so I've got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.

We were out on a date in my daddy's car
We hadn't driven very far
There in the road straight ahead
A car was stalled the engine was dead
I couldn't stop so I swirved to the right
I'll never forget the sound that night
The squealin tires the bustin glass
The painful scream that I heard last

Oh where oh where can my baby be
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to Heaven so I've got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.

When I woke up the rain was pourin down
There were people standin all around
Something warm runnin through my eyes
But somehow I found my baby that night
She lifted her head she looked at me and said
"Hold me darlin just a little while"
So I held her close I kissed her our last kiss
I'd found the love that I knew I had missed
Now she's gone eventhough I hold her tight
I lost my love my life that night

Oh where oh where can my baby be
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to Heaven so I've got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world

I don't know the reason that this song sticks with me the way it does. It may be because I can get a little sappy when it comes to music. It could be because this song is really sad and I can relate to losing someone you love (though I have never had anyone that I was dating die, let alone die in my arms). But it is one of my favorite songs of all time and if you haven't heard it... you should.

Kill

Why must I always entertain these thoughts in my head

Should they not entertain me? Alas they don’t and instead they torture me

They keep me up in the dead of night, I hold my eyes closed but feigning sleep never works

Never letting up, always building up as if to force their way into being

Bursting forth from my head, shattering my skull and not bothering to put the pieces back

Would that I could kill these thoughts but soon they might be the death of me

If I Died...

I sometimes wonder what would happen if I died today. The thoughts that I have aren't about wat happens to me after I die. Honestly I don't know and don't nessicarily care... I will be dead and I wouldn't be able to change it.

My thoughts are about those who are affected by me... and would be affected by my death.

Who would show up to my funeral? Would they cry?

Who would take some of the lessons that I have shared, verbaly or by the way I live my life, and use them for their own lives?

Would some people even care?

Will they still remember me 10 years down the line? 20? 30?

And the biggest one..... Will I be missed?

I would like to think that people who love me, my close friends and family members, will miss me. That they will remember me. That my life lessons that I leave behind: speak your mind, love with all of your heart, and keep those that you love close to you, will be carried on long after I am gone. But I don't know. But until the day comes, I will continue to believe how I believe, and live how I live, hoping to spread my message and share my life.