The Worst of Times

Another excerpt from my book. This is from the chapter "The Worst of Times."

As I got closer I got more and more nervous. I had the whole thing planned out in my head, but you know what they say, "if you want to make God laugh tell him your plans."

I pulled up outside and walked my way up to her door. I guess she saw me because she opened the door and invited me in before I even got to the porch. My hand never left its spot on the small blue box in my pocket.

"Hey Tim, I got something I gotta say." She started.

"Let me go first." I blurted out, and she nodded. "Well I know that we have only been dating for about eight months, but" I grabbed her hand. "I love you more than anything in the world. I have never felt this way about anyone before. I would take a bullet for you. Okay, I'm starting to ramble," I gave a small nervous chuckle.

"I guess what I'm trying to say is, I need you by my side." I got down on one knee and pulled the box out of my pocket. As I opened it I said, "Will you marry me?"

She looked down at me and her eyes started to fill as if she were about to cry. She closed her eyes for a slight second longer than a longer than a standard blink and a tear rolled down the side of her face.

"Oh my God... Tim." She started as another tear formed and dropped, leaving a tiny wet streak as it made its way down her face. "I don't know what to say."

"Just say yes Helen. That's all you need to say." My hands were shaking as my nerves grew from her hesitation.

"Tim... I'm pregnant."

My jaw dropped. "But... But... But we haven't even..." my voice trailed off in disbelief.

"I know, I'm so sorry Tim." She took a few steps back and burst into tears as I fell to my hands and knees. "I'm so sorry," she repeated.

"Just stop Helen," I told her putting the ring back in my pocket. "I love... loved you Helen. I never did anything to you, and you repay me by fucking some other guy?" I was starting to shake again, but not from nerves, from anger.

"I'm so sorry Tim." She said through her sobs.

"STOP SAYING THAT!" I shouted from my knees, I must have startled her because she jumped. "I quit school for you. I gave you my heart, I gave you everything Helen... EVERYTHING!!!" I pounded my fist on the floor. "I gotta get out of here..." I said to myself getting to my feet.

I walked out and slammed the door behind me. I just started walking down the street. I wasn't sure where I was going, I just had to get away from there. My head was swimming, it was flooded with the thoughts of the last eight months.

I soon arrived at a park. I looked around to see where I was, then I sat on one of the benches. I reached into my pockets and pulled out two things, the ring and my phone. I stared at the ring in my left hand as I used my right hand to call the one person that I could talk to at that moment. Charlie.