another excerpt...

More from the book... here goes...

Within a half an hour the room had finished eating and the music began. For their first dance as man and wife, Charlie and Stacy had chosen some slow song by this trashy britpop singer that I had never even heard of. I decided to sit this one out and just do a little people watching. I was completely stunnned by the dance. The way time seemed to stand still as the complete attention of the entire room was fixed on that single couple, holding each other so lovingly, so wonderfully, centered in the spotlight. That was what I wanted, I was craving it, I needed it... Hell, I deserved it.

I tried hard to shake off those feelings, it was Charlie's big day. I had absolutly no right to cheapen the memory of that day with my self pity. So instead I sat quietly, drinking my next glass of champagne and watching as the dance floor slowly filled with more and more couples to finish off the song. All the while Charlie and Stacy still at the center of the room.

After a few more glasses of bubbly, I took to the dance floor. I was feeling nice and loose and was ready to make an ass out of myself. I made my way to the dance floor dancing with anyone that would dance with me. I wasn't having much luck. I only had the oppertunity to slow dance twice, and for one of them I had to cash in a dance that Lily had owed me since high school.