another excerpt...

More from the book... here goes...

Within a half an hour the room had finished eating and the music began. For their first dance as man and wife, Charlie and Stacy had chosen some slow song by this trashy britpop singer that I had never even heard of. I decided to sit this one out and just do a little people watching. I was completely stunnned by the dance. The way time seemed to stand still as the complete attention of the entire room was fixed on that single couple, holding each other so lovingly, so wonderfully, centered in the spotlight. That was what I wanted, I was craving it, I needed it... Hell, I deserved it.

I tried hard to shake off those feelings, it was Charlie's big day. I had absolutly no right to cheapen the memory of that day with my self pity. So instead I sat quietly, drinking my next glass of champagne and watching as the dance floor slowly filled with more and more couples to finish off the song. All the while Charlie and Stacy still at the center of the room.

After a few more glasses of bubbly, I took to the dance floor. I was feeling nice and loose and was ready to make an ass out of myself. I made my way to the dance floor dancing with anyone that would dance with me. I wasn't having much luck. I only had the oppertunity to slow dance twice, and for one of them I had to cash in a dance that Lily had owed me since high school.

Forgettable

This one is all *her* I hate it that this one is not new and fresh tho... Have had this one for a while now even though I think of it as forgettable it's really not. No one can ever forget a block of time more than 5 years long. But One can try and I might just put it behind me soon enough. Life moves on and so must I but looking back and moving forward is a good way to fall flat on my ass. Something that I will not allow myself to do. Well with out further adieu here it is.

Forgettable

Forgetting you were everything to me, you were my waking moment

You were my final thought when I slept at night it was all so real to me

Yet all so false at once, it all was gone as fast it was there

Forgetting what it was that I felt was so easy to do

The last time I thought I of you it was because I remembered how much I hated you

I don’t think that you know it, I have moved on and your spells no longer linger with me

They are all gone and now you are left with out power, left with nothing

In the end you were so forgettable, all too forgettable