Endless

My thoughts are much more complicated that I like them to be

As I lay in my bed at the end of a long day sleep is the furthest thing from my mind

And definitely not what I do, in futile and fruitless attempts I close my eyes

I try to blank out everything else, remove everything from my mind and finally let go

Letting go never seem so hard, like letting go of the handle bars on my bike

Or letting of the breath that I hold, not sure if it would be my last

I can do it until I am blue in the face but holding on is much more painful

I exhale, slowly, Inhale deeply, but to no avail, my mind, my emotions always win

I can't seem to ever get anything right, not even sleep

I long for the bliss of darkness, I'd surround myself in it, embrace it if I could

Were that I was not afraid of what might reside behind my eyes

The long nights filled by, filled by

Of all things absence

I long for something to fill it but I don't think I will ever find it

No, at least for a night I want the search to end, I want to put a stop to the loneliness

But I will lose what's left of my sanity if I keep trying to find it

Away

Let us for just one night, tonight forget about everything in this crazy mad world

Forget about all the problems we face each day

Yours and mine included

Let’s slip away from all the bullshit

Withdraw from a world of negativity and escape to one of blissful unawareness

Or should I say singular awareness, it’s only you

Yes I’ll be there too like I’ve always been

Come with me let us just be

I could not ask for more than your presence

Where ever we end up sure as hell won’t matter at least not tonight

Escape with me this world will never bind us to it’s self-destruction

Come, let’s get away, so what do you say?

Nonsense

Closed eyes

Opened ears

Floating away on soundwaves

Feeling the rhythm

Pouring into my skull

The reverberation of bliss

Bouncing off of my skull

Rebounding in force

Colliding madly with my conscious

Melding seamlessly with every fiber of my being

Close my eyes

See it all flash by

Intoxicating sound

Perfect picture

Closed eyes

Opened ears

Open heart

Timepieces [of my heart]

When I said that I could only ever give you time I meant it

In more ways than one, so here you go take all the time you need

My one and only wish is that you don’t forget me as it ticks away at the lives we lead

Though, as I speak this I know it’s too late for this as well…

Still I won’t forget you, not now, nor anytime soon but not for lack of trying…

I know now that I ran short on time oh so long ago

So just take it with you, rest assured you leave me with none of it

And with my heart in pieces

Park Bench

Spending this gloriously beautiful day on a park bench

With little more than thoughts for company

I bask quietly in the soothing warmth of the sun

As the shadows of looming trees crawl ever so slowly across green grass

A gentle breeze rolls through my private meadow lightly caressing my cheeks

It reminds me that my lips were chapped by fiercer winds no more than two days prior

Closing my eyes I can hear an entire symphony filled with the laughter of a child, tweets and chirps of young sparrows and the ever distant sounds of the city

Times slows down as thoughts circle, revolving around this, my lonely reverie

From my park bench I escape from this, from that and everything in between

The world from this perspective never seemed so serene

Like staring into the eyes of your lover no one else knows the delight of my park bench

Roses (Unedited Revival of crazy old poetry)

I got a rose the other day
I got a rose for you
I searched for you and you I did not find
The rose I held was for nothing then, was it not?
I held the rose, so beautiful in my hands, as it dies
It’s life slowly fading away even as I look at it
It’s dying, falling apart, it dies even as I behold its beauty

Yesterday I got yet another rose
Another rose for you
Again I searched for you but this time you I did find
The one rose I found for you nothing in comparison to the bouquet you held
What I wouldn’t give to be a petal upon a rose in your bouquet
That I might be so close to your heart

Today is such a beautiful day, and another beautiful rose
The rose I found today will surely be of better use
Than all the ones I found before
Today I’ll search until I find you and proclaim my love for you
And if this rose doesn’t find it’s way to you
I’ll try again tomorrow

Tomorrow is another day and still another rose
Yes, another rose will come tomorrow
And with another rose there comes another chance
Another chance that I might say the words I held inside my heart
These words I’ve held for so long it huts me not to speak
I let out a thunderous cry to break the silence

Everytime I see your face the sun shines a little bit brighter
The rays of light touch your face so gracefully
When you smile the weight of the world seems to lift up
The weight of the world seems to fall off of my shoulders
A smile from you completes my day and melts my heart

I want to tell you that I care and that I will be there for you
I want to let you know how I feel about you
I want to say these words but how I feel goes beyond words
I want to show you, kiss you and hold you
Take my rose today and expect one tomorrow and everyday after

To catch your eye is al I wanted
To capture your heart, my only desire
To kiss your lips, my ultimate fantasy
To hold you in my arms, my only dream
Take my rose and take my heart with you