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As I sit and try to sort endless emotions surging through my body, I cant help but realize that things will never be the way they used to be.
The smile adorned across your face every time I walked into the room, the softness of your cheek as it lay ever so delicately upon my own.
As I sit here , attempting to stop the lonely tear from rolling down my cheek, I remember when we said that we wouldn’t make each other cry, and how we both failed miserably
Things happen for a reason, yet I cant seem to fathom the reality of you being away from me, never to come back running into to my ever awaiting arms.
You said that the eyes were the window’s to one’s soul, I remember sitting in front of you and gazing into your starry eyes, looking at the beauty within,
I close my eyes, to keep the tears from falling, but my soul can no longer take the pain.
I open them, and cry, my last tears for you.
Promise myself I will never let this happen again, yet secretly knowing that it probably will.
I pick up the phone and dial the number… never achieving the courage to press the call button, I put the phone down again.
Walk to the mirror in the bathroom, look at the droopy eyed, sleep deprived thing staring back,
Yell out to the world you never meant to cause this much pain.
You take the blade, and with one sure clean cut,
release….