As I sit and try to sort through the endless emotions running through my being,
I cant help but realize that things will never be the way they used to be.
The smile adorned across your face every time I walked into the room, the softness of your cheek as it lay ever so delicately upon my own.
I sit here, attempting to stop the lonely tear from rolling down my cheek, I remember when we said that we wouldn’t make each other cry, but look at us now, we are both crying once again.
People ALWAYS say things happen for a reason, yet I cant seem to fathom the reality of you being away from me, never to come back into to my forever open arms.
I remember you once told me that the eyes were the windows to one’s soul, I remember sitting in front of you gazing into your starry eyes, looking at the beauty within, seeing for once in my life something other than pretty eyes, but seeing you as a person, looking back at me, and you smiled. And we kissed
I close my eyes now, to keep the tears from falling, but my soul can no longer take the pain.
They open, and I cry, my last tears for you.
Promise myself I will never let this happen again.
I pick up the phone and dial the number… never achieving the courage to press the call button, I put the phone down again.
Walk to the mirror in the bathroom, look at the droopy eyed, sleep deprived thing staring back.
I yell out to the world,"You told me you would never cause me this much pain! I can only hope you can one day feel what I feel, right now."
I pick up the blade, and with one sure clean cut,
release….
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