I can't help but remember how easy it was before, I had my parents to rely on, didn't have to worry about anything but a mere $200 a month, and now that has gone up almost 500%.
Not to say my parents aren't helping me anymore but they too are seeing it difficult, I don't know if this might make me seem naive that I have had it pretty well before and didn't really see a struggle when it came to finances but I am really having a hard time with the fact that I am broke.
One of the things that really got to me, was this Christmas, Last year I spent about $1,600 on Xmas gifts, I had adopted 3 families for the Dear Santa program with the post office and gave gifts to my friends and fam, and decided to buy things for me at the thrift store and extremely discounted clearance items. Why? Because it made me feel good to see the smiles of the kids faces when they actually got what they had asked for.
What did I do this year? NOTHING, I barely had enough money to buy the one gift for my family secret santa.
I don't know if this makes me seem immature, but I just needed to rant a little bit. I hate this feeling of not being able to do anything. 2010, I really need you to bring me a little bit of that good karma my way, all I need is a little pick me up, especially with my health.
An update on THAT issue, so far I haven't been feeling worse, but I haven't been feeling all that great either, BUT that's not bad news, It means the medicine seems to be stopping the bad joo-joo. Wish me luck, first blood test on Monday!
Hope this year brings all my loved ones closer together, Love you guys a whole lot. Thanks for taking the time to read this. MUAH!
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